The past couple of months have been hard for me, especially with family deaths and being diagnosed with depression, although I believe my time here is running out. The constant bombardment of disapproval caused by myself is proving to be a leading factor in damaging effects on my health, yes the muffin isnt happy. Now you may say, Stud why not say something? Well what's the point, I may as well lie down and die to some people on this network. I feel as though this network is slowly shifting from being my family and solace to a place that hurts me more than makes me happy. Now don't get me wrong, people like @johnfg10 @Sandstroem @Rubijox @EndorianHD @profrags @tyler489 and many others make me feel a little better but, and a big but is that if you put a plaster on a cut, the cut is still there. I'll see you soon In this adventure or the next
You disapprove of yourself or you get disapproval by others? If a) stop doing that If b) stop giving a %&$§ about what other people think about you. Especially those who you don't care about. Trust me, I have been there and working hard to get out of there. I am certainly not where I want to get (it is all about the journey anyway), but being able to stay out of your comfort zone in total awkwardness is actually totally awesome. (Google comfort zone challenges or ask me in slack about it ). It also helps with a) But you already know my opinion on this topic. ;-) Besides from that, I wish you all the best and taking some time to relax is always a good thing.
Maybe I'm a Bit too fragile ATM, like I'm surprised how much my mental health has suffered in a month, from being the happy care free muffin to a muffin on the edge of ending it
All you can do is take some time for yourself - if you force yourself to stick with something you love, when you now aren't feeling it, you may just come to resent it. We'll be here for you when you return.
Well if you think about "ending it" you should talk about that with someone. And probably best with someone in reallife, not some random dudes in the internet ;-) What helped me was diving fully into the whole personal development scene, there are so many books, blogs, videos around that really motivate and help you. (Also a lot of BS unfortunately, the trick is to separate the crap from the helpful stuff) That is also the reason why I personally have some issues with people calling it a depression and that is it. We already had that discussion. I know there are serious cases out there, where popping pills is the only or maybe just temporary solution, but in many cases you can work on your situation, your environment, your inner game (most important part) and basically everything. That's not just some mumbo-jumbo, as someone with a peak weight of 400 pounds (about 180 kilos) and my life going nowhere, I know what I am talking about, since I made some serious changes in the last years. Of course family deaths can't be avoided and I don't know the exact circumstances in your family. My dad died like 2 months ago, which actually gave me even more motivation to change some more frustrating things. Life is too short to waste it. That is why I quit my job 2 weeks ago ;-)
Hey, we're not in the same boat, but very close to being. So I more or less know how you're feeling. Having depression is horrible, I know. So is losing family members. But, message me if you ever want to talk. It doesn't have to be on here.
TL;DR Stay happy, because life will get better While I dare not say I've come near your pain, I do know what it feels like to disregard my worth in life. Believe me when I say that wanting to end it is the biggest, most foolish mistake possible. Not only will you be living an even worse afterlife, others who value you will be affected. A death in the family is simply life moving on. If it makes you feel better, you will end up meeting them again someday and before that, the higher powers have plans for you to be happy again. One last thing I want to say is that others who've wasted their lives through some form or another dare to take the second chance to make their life worth living. If even they can do so, why can't you? As long as you have patience and as long as you're willing to take a beating or two, your life will turn around. Oh, and this entire thing may be a waste of time because I just woke up and my brain is still fried, most likely I got what you're saying wrong
yea i think you're right. but depression is a *insertswearwordhere* anyway, even if it looks like theres no way out, there will come times where you ask yourself what was going on. just needs time and some patience. so keep up muff
